quality vs. equality

life is about being bored untill you die, and you rely on getting by, all the time.
just getting by.

that's why i've taken a shine on music, beer, festivals, partying and concerts in general. it makes me forget i'm "just getting by" the rest of the time.

the paradox of being human is that i guess evolution has made huge mistakes because we've such complex minds. we adapt, quickly. it's the most successful part of surviving, of course, but it also means we grow tired and adapted to things REAL quick, which means the hunger for new experiences, new 'drugs' and new ways to get that kick easily escalate out of control and reason.
we lose ourselves.
we spiral down.

into an even greater sadness. the landscape of things done keeps getting bigger and your imagination seems to shrink. the more you try, the more bored you get afterwards. the happier you are, the greater the depression.

this is a sad sad truth, but that's the human life.

sometimes i'm not sure if i'm up for it all.